Thursday, January 31, 2013

Fangirl

Ok so I am now ready to share my fangirling life for the past monthssss.  Who would ever thought that I could be one?? Never been a fangirl.  There were times na may chance na mag-papicture ako with artistas pero hindi ko ginawa. Seeing them was already enough for me.

And here comes Walang Hanggan. Im not a fan of teleseryes.


I like Richard Gomez and Dawn Zulueta even before Walang Hanggan, but you know Richard and Dawn together is a different thing.  I have seen their old movies and their chemistry was very much visible. So it was given I like them and hey there is more their story was the the love and hate type so it was an add on to my kilig. I was hooked.  I religiously catched Walang Hanggan via online sites.



And twitter came to the scene. I read tweets about Walang Hanggan about Richard and Dawn to be specific.  Because forgive me I only care about them haha.  At first I dont exactly know to be a fan how to join their world. And so I followed those who tweeted about them also.  And that's the beginning of my full grown fangirling life.  My CharDawn world. I was planning to do it little by little, step by step and yet waht I did was run I even jumped.

Weeks after joining CharDawn World I was able to meet CharDawn in person eventhough meeting them was not part of my plan.  I just love CharDawn and what I want was just to join the CharDawn world so I can have someone to talk to about the kilig that they brought us every night.  But things happen I met them. Nagpapicture pa ako although at first I was having a second though doing it :).  I can almost imagine the whats and ohs of my real world while reading this.


Oh I have my reel world twitter account separate from my personal twitter account.  Yes my real world does't know about this fangirling life.  Alam nila na I like CharDawn and I'm a fan of their love team.  But thats it all the info about my fangirl life stops there. Hindi ko maamin na pume-Penguin ako haha. I don't know why, I cant.  If you're a CharDawnPenguin you'll know where Im coming from haha.  So please dont' judge me ok,  kung bakit hindi ko kayang ipagsigawan sa mundo ko na pume- Penguin ako and nagpapa-trend ako sa twitter.


I even watched Walang Hanggang Pasasalamat without having to make maka-awa for the ticks.  Went to Divisoria for banner materials and made the banner after.  Can you even imagine me holding a banner and making wagayway with all the kilig??? Nah!!?? But I did haha but you know holding one of the letters may dalawang purposes yan , first eh kasi kailangan kasi,  second para makatago ako sa camera haha.  You know it was fun :) hindi ko nga nafeel that it's jologs while doing it eh haha.  Pero hindi ko kayang magpakita sa camera.  Yes others are shouting pa to catch their attention, us Penguins we were hiding because we are all a closet fans haha.  Not once that I did it  I did it twice. (AND NOW I EVEN HAVE TO CHANGE MY BLOG'S URL BECAUSE OF THIS ENTRY SO MY REAL WORLD WOULDNT FIND THIS ANYMORE, THE MOMENT I SHARED THIS NEW LINK WITH THEM I'LL MAKE SURE THAT THIS POST IS ON THE DRAFT FOLDER ALREADY HAHAHA) I cant talaga I cant.


I dont know anymore the definition of reel and real.  Ask me why.  My lips are sealed.  Only Penguin knows.  Just live in our world called CharDawn and you'll know why.


When I really like something there' a tendency that I get obsessive and so I am with CharDawn.  I watched vids and clips about them countless times and it makes no difference.  It was always like the first time.


Being a fangirl and living in a reel world is not easy.  CharDawn Penguins have been through a lot.. Ups and Downs; laughters and tears; easy mode and stress mode; admired by many; loved by many; criticized; misunderstood but we love our CharDawn World,  we love being there we love what we are doing and we love each other and before the day ends or a certain issue ends the not so graceful part of it are forgotten but yes lessons learned.  I think all those things are part of our being ... fan; loud; straightforward; true; frank indiscreet of our feelings; young and aggressive.  We know when to speak and we know when to stop but you know sometimes what we know or what we think was right was not so right to others; intellectual opinion........ AND THEN AGAIN WE LEARNED


Many times I considered to leave my reel world.  Sometimes kasi it's very painful yes it came to a point na pati personal lives and decisions nila na-a-affect ako.  Talo ko pang may personal LQ.  It's hard having this attachment to CharDawn love team because as we all know they have a family of their own.  So you know what I mean???  But it was even hard to quit haha.  


Sorry I don't live in a middle.  It's always been an All or Nothing; a Yes or No; Up or Down there's no middle thing for me. Because living in the middle is dangerous.You get nothing.  Yes for others being in the middle is the safest,  maybe ... but for me it's boring, it's just going with the flow even you're not enjoying it. I want to live life to the fullest.  And that's us the CharDawn Penguins.  I love them.  My not so imaginary friends.


Mama Dawn has an upcoming show without Papa Gomz.  It hurts me.  Call me anything for being hurt but please do not question my love and support for both of them.  I've said it already I am not completely happy with that because they are not together in that project.  But being not completely happy doesn't mean that I love her less or I will no longer support her. I will still pray for the success of her new show. Im still here to support her anytime, anywhere in everything I can. My support may be in a different way now.  But it doesnt mean that I cared less.  It's just that I think I cant bear  seeing her or even him having sweet scenes with another partner regularly every night.  A one deal show or a movie with another partner is different seeing them with others every night.  So since hindi ko naman talaga naabutang ang mga treleserye sa TV , a forward button on replays will going to be my bestfriend haha.

I will surely miss them now that they are no longer together in that upcoming show.  Oh atleast 16 weeks lang daw un.  The problem with me is sa kanila lang ako kinikilig.  Sa kanila ko lang kayang maging fangirl.  Some of my CharDawnPenguin siblings are kilig also with other loveteams so while wala pang show ang CharDawn dun muna sila.  Ako wala talaga haha CharDawn lang ang reel world ko.  I will just rekindle my romance with books and blogs while waiting for their next project.

But atleast us CharDawn Penguins will always have each other may project or wala man ang CharDawn. We love each other beyond our fangirling life.


My fangirling life will not be complete kung hindi ako nakagawa ng video haha...Im very much aware that it's not my forte but still nagpaka trying hard ako.... you may want to watch it ...please see the link below .. yes not One but Three ... enjoy..





Fangirl,
Sweet 
a.k.a. @novlyf on twitter


















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